The Unsolvable Conspiracy of Life

The Unsolvable Conspiracy of Life is an exploration of internal dialogues, and the complexities, vulnerabilities, and contradictions found within. Through this deeply personal work, I expose unspeakable fears, the embarrassing, and sometimes damaging thoughts that consume me, and the unanswerable questions that inhabit my brain. By making visible the inner workings and tangled tapestries of my own mind – the neurodivergent mind of a working parent of three young children – I present a case study for the intricate neural patterns and pathways that knit together the landscapes of an individual’s thoughts. Though based on my own viewpoint, this work articulates a more universal experience of the weight and responsibility of life and parenthood – of living lives that are not solely our own.

This project is still in progress.

Wall

68” x 80”

Using the visual languages of documentary photography and candid snapshots, I create a pictorial framework, reminiscent of a detective’s evidence board, within which I trace the interconnected webbing of both dominant and minor thought processes. Referencing the sporadic, non-linear nature of inner dialogues, the multiple branches of imagery are punctuated with poly bags containing collected samples, found artifacts and fragments of handwritten text containing specific questions, thoughts, and fears and. The installation, set on a recreation of a wall in my home, expresses the unexpected humor and absurdity we face when balancing the complexities of self with the constant, often overwhelming, responsibilities of domestic and professional life.